Something On My Mind Lately

Even though people overcome obstacles, they still have their bad days. Luckily I was raised by amazing parents and THAT is even an under statement. My parents are some of the best people I know. Something they taught me is-

Strength is Something You Choose

Every once in awhile things are brought up that remind me of not having any more children. It is something that I accepted years ago...over 3 years ago. But it still can hurt. It isn't the people all around me having more babies ALL the time, it isn't seeing Ellah's friend's playing with their siblings, it isn't seeing Jeremiah holding a baby boy or holding a baby in my own arms. I was told before I had my baby 3 years ago that having another baby would be very hard on my body and extremely risky and that I was lucky to even have come this far. It was something I had to overcome and I did, especially after knowing that my little baby was a HUGE miracle. I believe what hurts the most is the people who judge and who are ignorant. I have heard so many comments and people who all they want to do is hug me and say sorry (weird by the way). It seems like lately there have been lots of comments or situations that deal with this. So of course this has been on my mind and hopefully I can bring some light to people.

Do not judge people for any reason at all. I have a friend who had been married for a few years and hadn't had a child yet, people talked about it. They have no clue they had been trying for 2 years, they just gossiped. It broke her heart.

People say things to me all the time like "Well you have no idea what its like to have more than one child" or "Well imagine if you had another child, you would understand" or " You wouldn't look like that if you had another child - you only look like that because you have had one child". The best is when people push adoption on us and get upset when we say it is not right for us. They do not know my health issues.

I do have my bad days but I am seriously blessed to be around so many other children. Serving in the Primary has been an answer to my prayers. I love children so much. I also have great support and they have helped me really see things for how they are. I will be the first to say how jealous I am of those enjoying multiple babies but in a good way. I love hearing that people are pregnant, I almost always cry because I know how incredibly special and lucky they truly are. Do not hide those things, it is fun to be apart of the good news. But some people have a hard time and comments can really hurt them. The small comments, those too can stab a knife in their chest. Please, please be kind, think about what you are going to say. But most importantly do not judge people because you have no idea what their situation is.

I love my small little family.

I love my life.

I am blessed more than I can say.

I have chose to be STRONG

My Little Pirate

Bells loves and I mean LOVES Pirates right now. She woke up last Friday from her nap and wanted to be one and eat her pirate booty lunch. I'm pretty cool like that and let her do her thing. The only girly thing about her is her favorite color...Pink. So a pink pirate she was....

Maybe she gets all the craziness from her parents? I did attack Miah the other day with her pirate sword and he got hurt so I threw my fairy dust (glitter) over his wound to heal him.

Bells laughed and laughed!!

Living with Girls

Jeremiah accepted that he will always be outnumbered by his two girls! Poor guy...not really! He loves it! He loves to serve as the protector and walk down the street with his two girls on each side. We spoil him crazy and he spoils us as well. My dad has talked to him a few times about living in a house full of girls, as my dad told him....he wouldn't trade it for the world. Gosh I love my dad!

A week or so ago, the girls wanted to go out to dinner to Haleiwa (Pizza Bob's and Scoops of Paradise). As usual it was a little later and Jeremiah threw me out of the house, I was so tired. But so glad I went. Plus Jeremiah and Bells deserved a little bonding time. I came home to a husband working on his homework and a quietly sleeping daughter. It was such a great feeling! I kissed him and went to the put some things away. As I walked past the kitchen table I saw the brush, leave in conditioner spray bottle and the blow dryer. It was the gosh darn cutest thing. Of course Bells needed a bath and he gave her one but her hair gets crazy, so he took it upon himself to make sure she didn't get crazy hair. When I asked him about it...

"I couldn't let her go to bed with wet hair, it would be all cold and fuzzy in the morning!"

I love this guy! Now he is the one who brushes and blow dries her hair if need be.

World Most Amazing Dad!

L-O-V-E

Happy Valentines Day!!

Our Valentine is very busy today and that is okay because he doesn't just show us one day out of the year....he shows us every day. He had to leave early but made us the best breakfast, which he usually does about 4 times a week. These girls love breakfast. He had two kinds of french toast, powdered doughnuts, 3 kinds of juice, bacon, milk, fresh pineapple and I think that about wraps it up. Oh yummy!

Later in the day Bells and I played at the beach, drawing in the sand and were joined by a few friends. Then we delivered Bells' Valentines to her friends, she had so much fun doing this. We watched Alvin and the Chipmunks together and made up a dance. This girl and I have so much fun. She is a mini me for sure. I hope every one had a great day as we did.

Bells wishing you a Happy Valentines Day!!

Valentines Day Party

Bells was so excited for passing out Valentines to all of her friends that I thought we needed to have a party to make Valentines Mailboxes so we did. Well it was one of the windy days in awhile. Well add glitter, paper, stickers, glue and oh lots of 3-5 years olds. Hahaha! Sometimes I think to myself, what was I thinking. But in the end I always love it and so do the kids. I told her to smile but she just didn't want to, no worries though, it makes for a funny / cute picture.

Char-Latte....just cheesin' it up. But she can with that B-E-A-UTIFUL smile of hers!!

Sandrita and Morrison! What a box! This is Ellah's best friend and he moves to Washington DC in April. Seriously, I am not sure how Ellah is going to take this. They love each other so much. I think it will hurt me more knowing how much they have fun together. My heart aches right now just thinking about it.

Sylvester...I could go on for days about this kid. He is so awesome with all the kids. he is 10 and is from the Marshall Islands. He lives right downstairs. He will play all day with the little ones, he sings Justin Bieber like no other, probably better than the Biebster himself. His laugh will bring a smile to your face no matter what. His Dad will fix your bike, even if you bring it to him in 100 pieces and his Mom can bake one mean biscuit (which I did beg for the recipe). He was focusing really hard it seems in this picture!!

Bethany and Madilyn working really hard on making sure their stars are placed in the right spot. We love our Canadian friends so much we are following them to Arizona.

The whole gang afterwards with their boxes! It is always so much having these fun activities for the kiddos. It gets pretty crazy though!!

Nike / Hurley Bling!

First off the box itself is awesome!! I would of been happy just having this box but I had to open it. I had been waiting patiently, okay not really. I was like a kid waiting for snack time. It brought be back to when Miah was on his mission, I stalked the mail man. Ashamed...not at all!

Anyway, it finally arrived yesterday. My reward from finishing the Nike Women's 1/2 Marathon last month. The same race that got me into the Nike Woman's Marathon in San Fran come October. This race is one of the most difficult to get into and I GOT IN. I am so excited. Now it is time to start fundraising.

It came with a note from Nike, the awesome box, the bracelet was attached to this other cool gadget. Yep I am saving them all!!

I Run To Be...Free, Strong, Sexy, Fierce and Me !!

Why Do You Run?

Three and Free

It has been far too long since I have blogged...I mean seriously far too long! The reason, I hate blogging. I dislike sitting on the computer, I love doing other things. As in, hanging out with my family, running, sewing, crafting, baking and SLEEPING. I never seem to find the time to blog. But I believe I really need to do this....

So here it goes....Life around our house is crazy! Miah is so busy with school but the guy is so amazing and smart! How does he do it? He pulls of a 4.0 with the most difficult classes at the University. One professor pulled him aside after class and said he has never seen his dissection skills in the 20+ years of teaching. They are amazing. Gross to me! But I am so proud and jealous of my husband. We are just waiting to hear back from the Dental Schools. We are really praying for Midwestern! The interview went great! Everything and I mean EVERYTHING points to Midwestern. How could we not get in when it feels so right? He is gone pretty much all day, ughh! It gets really hard on Bells and I but we pull through. I try and give her the best each day.

For me...I am still ticking! I am trying to recover right now from a 3 week kidney episode. I am seriously getting sick (no pun intended) of this. Medical help here on the Island for me isn't great. The Aloha is awesome but the actual medical part...JUST PLAIN SUCKS!! I am constantly fighting this. My body works over twice as hard each day than the average person. A small cold is extremely hard on me and the recovery is annoying and long. My body shuts down at 8pm every night and I HAVE to have my sleep or else I get sick. It was my new year resolution...listen to my body better! I am taking it in my own hands and trying to find anything to help me out. I have turned to DoTerra Oils but holy pricey! I believe I will know more about kidneys and my body than my Nephrologist. Another reason I am praying on Midwestern...BETTER HEALTH CARE!! I am still running. I love it! It gets difficult because when I get sick, I can't run and after the episode, my body is so depleted that I am back to square one. Until I get my health under control, training and running races are a no go. I wonder what my potential could be if I didn't have to stop running all the time. I did run the Nike Women's Virtual Half Marathon. It was awesome! That qualified me for the Women's Nike Marathon in San Fran in October! Never heard of it...look it up! Its almost impossible to get into and you get super spoiled, free Nike stuff everywhere and finishers all get a Tiffany and Co Nike Pendant. All in all...life is good!!

Now for Bells...our baby! She turned three on Saturday. It was sad! Not sad because I can't have anymore babies and adoption isn't for us but sad because she is growing so fast! She is not a baby anymore, she is a little person now! She is so smart too! She gets that from her Daddy. We have a little school session everyday and she loves it. She is such a tomboy, just as her mommy was. She loves dragons, dinosaurs and pirates. But her favorite color is pink! She has also started to really love singing. Yesterday while taking a trip to the grocery store, she sang loudly the whole time. I was so proud! I do not know where time has gone. Just yesterday she was only able to be seen through the NICU Incubator and now she is racing me to the swings. She is such a joy in our life. I love being a mom, seriously the coolest thing ever. Miah and I will talk at night about how blessed we are and that she is seriously a miracle! She is just like her mommy, a fighter!! I love this little girl!